So today is monday.. probably another mundane day which i sorta got all the answers wrong for a tutorial which i prepared and thought that most of my answers make sense.. and went through a dead lecture which totally make no sense at all.. I think basically my GBE is screwed.. as badly as my Blaw i guess.. maybe taking it again will make some sense to me the next time round..


So exams are around the corner.. and everyone is already mugging and pushing themselves towards reading all the tested materials and stuffs.. everyone except me.. i guess i lack the motivation to study totally.. it just wouldnt work out eventually.. i attend all lectures and pay attention to most except gbe but i understand less than anyone else.. i did my tutorials to prepare for class but gave worse answers than those who made them up on the spot.. there are times i study.. real hard.. but i get the same or worse results.. so motivating huhh..

i guess im suffering from atychiphobia.. and not getting a gpa of 3.0 and above ONCE nor getting ONE distinction that actually contribute to my GPA is fucking demoralising..

So why push myself to the limit.. when i know my grades are already limited..