As the tests and exams are coming around the corner.. the thoughts in my mind get even more clouded.. to the extent that during my bathing time.. which is believed to be the time where we relax ourselves and wash away all the dirts and troubles and start fresh and afresh in our beautiful home.. is now a time where i can worry about my grades for my exams..

Just earlier on today.. after reaching home from a long tiring day of saving the world.. covered in goos and bloods and smell like corpses.. i was having my enjoyable bath until my mind started to drift towards the time i realised i failed my module..

Then everything came in.. the fact that i scored horribly for MST.. didnt do that well for the project.. and scored unbelieveably horribly terribly monkey low for semester exams.. all accumulate into a failure grade for me..

Then from the history.. my mind drift to present.. whichever i am doing the worst now is probably HRM with a 50% for MST.. Hopefully the project may be of some decent grades.. and then it is.. Semester exam...

well to some extent.. HRM and BLAW are quite similar..

1. I understand both of them quite clearly..
2. but didnt know how to write in the proper way which the teachers want.. and
3. They are basically chucks of text which im supposed to photocopy into my mind


Well.. One big failure and im out.. how true that statement could be.. and after thinking of the present.. my mind glides to the future.. what if i fail blaw again? i would be school-less.. and what if i fail something this year? i would be friend-less as they will all move on to the next sem and i wouldnt be able to join them at all.. and i wouldnt go itp together nor graduate together.. Mymymy.. the fear of failure is coming back to me again..

Can you imagine.. what seems like a not longer than 5min bathing time of relaxation turned into a 15min drowning time of fear and worries..



The worse fear is that when we step up and succeed, we have to face the fact that we've always had the power to change and we could have changed a year or five years ago, but we didnt.