Its time to get into groups for project.. a small and simple project.. but a heavy 25% weightage.. i thought perhaps the few friends i met for the past few weeks are going to take me in for the project groups.. but well.. realistically.. who would dare to take someone that forward the module huhh.. but i still have to thank some of them for really trying to help me get a group within them.. though it is slightly impossible as the others do not really know me either.. eventually its sorta a death sentence.. or at least it seems to be for now.. perhaps things will change on friday.. so im grouped with a girl i have never heard of the name before.. and another girl whom i seen her turned up for tutorials for less than 5times or so.. i wonder how i can get this project done.. the fear of doing this badly and having another accident during the semester exams is enough to put me into shivers.. for that means i probably will be kicked out of the school.. its slowly becoming a phobia.. everytime i hear term "semester exam".. the thought of failling it and having to retake it come into my mind.. plus its not as if i aint studying for it.. its just the way i express my answers are slightly unacceptable.. the fear of not able to proceed to year 3 haunt me.. the fear of not able to go for internship together with the rest haunt me too.. semester exams.. 50%.. a mistake and im a goner.. again.. well on the brighter side.. my tutor had helped me by fixing a date for my group to have a meeting with her so that hopefully everyone will be productive.. but whatever the outcome i probably have to accept huhh.. oh well.. exams are coming up real soon.. perhaps its time to start studying.. perhaps they will be of some use.. i hope..
Sometime i wonder.. why the hell am i thinking so much.. Maybe things aint going to be so bad.. maybe im going to pass everything with flying colours.. maybe my group is going to pawned all the other groups of the class.. Im starting to see the glimpse of light.. the ray of hope is awaiting me.. =)
Ohwell... feel better writing things out.. now im back to my better mood and can start doing my MICE.. WTH! its 1am already?!
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